Memory Processes
I just want to figure it out…

What is my life’s purpose?

To swing on swings

To dance

Photography

To make people smile

To make people laugh

To make people think

To make me think

To change the world

To better the human condition

Psychology

Anthropology

To make pillows

To open up my own business

To meet everyone in the world and know them

To make friends

To not make friends

 To be alone forvever

To love with out fear

To write

National geographic

To die

To kill myself

To kill other people

To be the anti Christ

To be the second coming of jesus Christ

To have a family

To be a mother

To eat food

To breath

To love

To live

To live without fear

To find my purpose

To be a small business owner

To make chocolate

To make peace with my mother (for real)

To make peace with my past

To forgive others for being themselves

To ask for forgiveness for being myself

To be judgemental

To not judge at all

To laugh at myself

To want what I can never have

To cry

To never cry

To teach dance

To teach dancing lessons

To be optimistic

To be philosopher

To learn

To live every day like it my last

To remind others of their beauty

To display hope

To be selfless

To find inner peace

To find peace of mind

To find my soulmate

To find my other half

To find my missing link

To make children happy

To make children laugh

To write book for children

To make lists forever

To major in interior design

To find the path

To believe in god

To create my own religion

To be happy

To hold a child in my womb for nine months

To give birth to said child

To have a child

To have 12 children

To have twins

To be “cool”

To be a genius

To discover my true genius

To discover the shining light hidden and dimmed inside every human being

To discover the light with in myself

To learn to express myself in creative ways

To be creative

To make things with my hands

To become a carpenter

To create

To create a path of my own

To express the hidden love for my love

To spread the word of god

To be quiet

To find the one thing hidden inside of me that refuses to come out

To find my passion

To evolve my passion

To create my passion

To create everything

To feed the hungry

To rest

To be bored

To get a job and die

To get an office job and die

To go to Russia

To go to Portugal

To win the lottery and get hit by a bus

To let myself be free

To free myself

To free others

To liberate the people of the world

To liberate myself from myself

To write about my purpose in life forever

To discover my purpose

To realize that I have a purpose

To be the shining light in someone’s life

To be the apple of someone’s eye

To be the apple of my eye

To find someone

To find

To discover

To create to find to discover to shine

To express the overwhelming feeling of guilt and failure of being alive

To be alice

To be marsha

To be myself

To discover who I really am

To know myself

To love myself

To be a best friend to every one

To want

To need

To be heard

To  grow

To eveolve

To sing

To let someone other than me hear me sing

To write songs

To my song no matter who hears me

To no longer care what people think of me

To be a lesbian

To heterosexual

To be bicurious

To be a man

To converge

To be the director of my life

To be schizophrenic

To want more than I can have

To need more than I can provide for myself

To envelope all the pain and suffering in the world in my heart so that no one person I love ever has a broken heart

To forgive his past

To let him forgive his past

To forgive him

To let it be

To let go

To stop planning for a “future” that is only a fiction

To stop living in my dreams

To live in my dreams

To live in my head

To live in the Bahamas

To go to Thailand and be a goat farmer

To grow green tea

To cultivate marijuana

To cultivate hops

to be

to live happily

to spread happiness and rainbows throughout st. Augustine

to live in Miami forever

to admit that I have no heart

to admit to myself that I do have a heart and that it is okay to hurt and feel and cry and want and need because people are just people and they want and need and feel and hurt and love and cry and are human and that is what sets our species apart from every other animal on this earth.

To sneeze and propel snot on to the sleeve of my flannel

To admit that there is no real pupose…Or purpose for me but there is one for every one else.

To  to be persistent with my goals to reach to strive to stop being lazy to try’

To try harder

To try harder everyday be the person I want to be to

To live courageously

To resonate with love

To be the true embodiment of love and happiness and peace

To know the “way”

To feel again

To live my life,no one else’s, on my terms. To love without fear of loosing, with out fear of rejection, to resonate with love and integreity and courage and compassion. To be absolutely and undeniably conscious and aware and human.

To be thoughtful and courageous, and assert myself when appropriate to let go.

To be understanding and helpful. To love unconditionally.

To understand

To be accepting and open minded

To be bold and compassionate and loving